Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Beloved spouse

On November 14th 2015 life slowed down
you had slowed down and then the last breath of life left you
you had given the fight of your life.
you left so many that loved you but the choice wasn't yours and we have to accept it wasn't our choice either.

Needing answers that would never come all that is left is the memories
to comfort me to shake me out of a slumber that I dread to take

November 14th 2015 life slowed down
you slowed down and took your last breath
I remember your eyes, I remember your tears

I will always remember you.

Dedicated to my husband who is watching me and his girls until we meet again.

Keisha Martin

Saturday, October 10, 2015

I think I can....

I am in the thick of rewriting, my adult novel (erotica) and also outlining an epic science fiction my second the first I did in 2010 and have not looked at it again.

Keisha Martin

*waves* checking in.

Its been a crazy few months juggling university and writing, wait this was my update few months ago so I guess its not really a new checking in, but I am happy to pass on my epic fantasy outline is concluded and I am eager to begin writing on a spanking new page. Also my adult novel I am almost finished second round of revision and also I cannot wait to move on on the third revision/rewrite for each draft I set a goal what I want to achieve all the drafts will include rewrites but for the first one I worked on high-lightening all my adjectives/adverbs some I had to leave because it made sense for the dialogue or the scene. I also utilize a self-editing checklist for fiction writers I found this list years ago and it has proven useful in organizing how the mss is polished. I also decided paying for an editor is costly so I will work hard and read plenty of books to help me do my own self editing I believe that I can do so. Also I decided to participate in nanowrimo as I write my new YA and hope one day this dream will become a reality as always happy writing.

Keisha Martin

Thursday, March 5, 2015

Writing is another career if you want it to be

Its March 2015 and I have been having thoughts lately of feeling as if I have failed myself, in my mind and dreams I should be published, but the reality always resurfaced I  I slacked off and unconsciously writing became a hobby rather than a serious focus which saddened me.

 I think I also lost the focus how to make juggling work; as of late I am pursuing my degree, being a mom to two beautiful girls  a nine year old and a  fourteen year old , and working full-time is very difficult to juggle along with pursuing my writing dream in addition a challenging situation I continue to deal with. Truthfully at that moment I had to take a pause on many things in order to deal with that matter but the issue is stabilizing itself and  I feel I have a brighter perspective and ready to  make a career of my aspiration to get an agent and published.

 I decided to stop belly aching so to speak and juggle my task better, I love Facebook and other social media for the purpose of learning new ideas relating to writing and I was fortunate one day to see  http://www.victoriaschwab.com/ calendar how she juggles school, exercise and her publishing commitments  and that was the starting point for me to be focused on my writing career, which was a huge motivator when stickers are involved I love stickers. Writing 500 words per day has helped me take the edge off so to speak because I am no longer dreaming of  unrealistic things I am setting goals of firstly rewriting one novel at a time and also coming to terms that the first novel I had written needed more editing and also  longer period of time in which I do not look at it because I focused for too long it was the novel that was going to get me an agent and  it may be but truthfully only a few authors have had that awesome experience but later acknowledged they were lucky because the book was not their best even though it sold really well. I also realized to pursue a writing career I must read more often and not only authors I adore but a variety of authors in a variety of genres although romance is still my number one genre. So the focus is to follow my calendar and at the end of the month I will get a sense what took more of my time lately many stickers were for school less on exercising and less on writing because school is taking up much of my time due to assignments, but the days that I have extra time to write I feel great the novel I am currently rewriting is at the 70K mark my aim is for 90K and when I begin the reread/rewrite process again I hope to stay within that range. I will also begin my work out routine working out helped me because it did decrease my stress and improved my self esteem. I feel more determined and eager to accomplish my writing goals.

Below Victoria Scwab explains the calender/sticker for writing


Happy Writing.

Keisha Martin

Sunday, December 28, 2014

Reflection of the past

This is a previous post I wrote in 2013 and I thought its still fitting as 2015 draws closer, I still struggle with balancing my personal life with my creative outlet but I have gotten a little bit better shaken things off (the Taylor Swift song exemplifies this somewhat) so as I stay focus on the same goals of getting published the traditional way its nice to read what I felt back then and the strides I have made.  

So I have hit a rather unfortunate snag in my writing nope its not writers block its stress,the type of stress that seemed to be dimming my many characters voices and that has angered me. I have been enduring a rather difficult situation at work and the stress revolves around the fact I cannot control the outcome--the outcome for me would be to eliminate the situation, to look at individuals who I felt wronged me and block them out so much so it'll seem like I don't know them. I realize that will never happen because its not realistic what is realistic is that I have to roll with the punches so to speak and deal with it, and deal with it means getting on with my life and in time it'll work out for itself. The truths that I am learning from my recent circumstances are as follows. 1. How people interpret what I do what I say is out of my control What is within my control is how I respond which hasn't been the most positive because I have let my anger get the best of me. 2. Its okay to let my guard down Trust is super important to me and I presume for many people that is also important but what I realize is that once I let down my guard I am at risk to get hurt so I can either live in a shell and only let the people I feel safe within my comfort zone or realize although I will get hurt I have to be optimistic that other people that cross my path will be good people. 3. Its okay to not be liked This reflection was difficult for me I use humor many times to hide my discomfort in social situations because my personality is more of a home body anyways as a writer whose pursuing the difficult dream of getting agent and published I realize many times I will judged by my writing; by critique partners/beta readers freelance editors agents/editors etc and majority of time those individuals may not get my writing and that is okay because it will not reflect who I am as a person so the key is to separate the two which is easier said than done. In conclusion writing is is part of me its been long gone from the outlet I utilized to deal with stress and merged to an actual job, a goal that I will persevere at until I get the results that I want which is to be published via the traditional way. Its fitting I write this post as the new year creeps closer, so my goal for 2013 other than getting a agent/published is to learn to deal with my stress better and realize the world I share with includes some people that will hurt me or have values that does not mesh with my values, and I must decide whether I want that hurt or differences in values consume me to the point I cannot focus on my writing or look at it the sensible way which is I am only in charge of me and also I am only human and will learn to be a better person based on my experiences. 

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Revision Cave

I must admit an awful truth I have slacked off immensely, well don't be quick to shame me part of the reason is being inundated with university work (wishing I can write everyday, but that won't garner me making a living so I will continue to dream.)

Keisha Martin


When I began writing in summer 2010 ( previous blog post, I mentioned my epic plan) fast-forward to 2014 my epic plans to be agented and published is not a failure, because it's not a race, and I believe that my dream, although hard will happen because I choose to persevere, I have been through so much, first off,  concluding working with initial editor (to be fair I knew nothing of writing) recently being let go by my awesome editor because things had changed between both of us, and that was okay. Deciding to pursue my university degree changed things as well because the delicate balance commenced on top of being a mom, a wife, etc. I realized few days ago I was going about things wrong I was rushing, and in fact, I was not pacing in order to finish a readable manuscript, I am still in love with my original book and at the same time have plenty of ideas as I rewrite it, I am glad I am stubborn because I have not stopped just yet until I finish my first book, when it's all said and done if it becomes a book I hide under my mattress so be it but for now, I will pace to get it done right.


Part of pacing includes reading I admit I have decreased that, and I have missed out and my muse has suffered that consequence, one thing my second editor told me was to always read because it will enable me to continue learning about the craft and not forget the skills I learned.

Finally, as I write this blog, I am thinking of the amazing, beautiful, courageous Maya Angelou I will leave you with a wonderful poem this poem inspires me in so many ways.

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Source: http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/phenomenal-woman/

Keisha Martin