Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Beloved spouse


On November 14th 2015 life slowed down
you had slowed down and then the last breath of life left you
you had given the fight of your life.
you left so many that loved you but the choice wasn't yours and we have to accept it wasn't our choice either.

Needing answers that would never come all that is left is the memories
to comfort me to shake me out of a slumber that I dread to take

November 14th 2015 life slowed down
you slowed down and took your last breath
I remember your eyes, I remember your tears

I will always remember you.


Dedicated to my husband who is watching me and his girls until we meet again.











Saturday, October 10, 2015

I think I can....

I am in the thick of rewriting, my adult novel (erotica) and also outlining an epic science fiction my second the first I did in 2010 and have not looked at it again.


*waves* checking in.

Its been a crazy few months juggling university and writing, wait this was my update few months ago so I guess its not really a new checking in, but I am happy to pass on my epic fantasy outline is concluded and I am eager to begin writing on a new page. 

Also my adult novel I am almost finished second round of revision and also I cannot wait to move on on the third revision/rewrite for each draft I set a goal what I want to achieve all the drafts will include rewrites but for the first one I worked on high-lightening all my adjectives/adverbs some I had to leave because it made sense for the dialogue or the scene. 

I also utilize a self-editing checklist for fiction writers I found this list years ago and it has proven useful in organizing how the mss is polished. 

I also decided paying for an editor is costly so I will work hard and read plenty of books to help me do my own self editing I believe that I can do so. Also I decided to participate in nanowrimo as I write my new YA and hope one day this dream will become a reality as always happy writing.






Thursday, March 5, 2015

Writing is another career if you want it to be


Its March 2015 and I have been having thoughts lately of feeling as if I have failed myself, in my mind and dreams I should be published, but the reality always resurfaced I slacked off and unconsciously writing became a hobby rather than a serious focus which saddened me.

 I think I also lost the focus how to make juggling work; as of late I am pursuing my degree, being a mom to two beautiful girls a nine year old and a fourteen year old , and working full-time is very difficult to juggle along with pursuing my writing dream in addition a challenging situation I continue to deal with. Truthfully at that moment I had to take a pause on many things in order to deal with that matter but the issue is stabilizing itself and I feel I have a brighter perspective and ready to  make a career of my aspiration to get an agent and published.

 I decided to stop belly aching so to speak and juggle my task better, I love Facebook and other social media for the purpose of learning new ideas relating to writing and I was fortunate one day to see  http://www.victoriaschwab.com/ calendar how she juggles school, exercise and her publishing commitments  and that was the starting point for me to be focused on my writing career, which was a huge motivator when stickers are involved I love stickers. Writing 500 words per day has helped me take the edge off so to speak because I am no longer dreaming of  unrealistic things I am setting goals of firstly rewriting one novel at a time and also coming to terms that the first novel I had written needed more editing and also  longer period of time in which I do not look at it because I focused for too long it was the novel that was going to get me an agent and  it may be but truthfully only a few authors have had that awesome experience but later acknowledged they were lucky because the book was not their best even though it sold really well. I also realized to pursue a writing career I must read more often and not only authors I adore but a variety of authors in a variety of genres although romance is still my number one genre. So the focus is to follow my calendar and at the end of the month I will get a sense what took more of my time lately many stickers were for school less on exercising and less on writing because school is taking up much of my time due to assignments, but the days that I have extra time to write I feel great the novel I am currently rewriting is at the 70K mark my aim is for 90K and when I begin the reread/rewrite process again I hope to stay within that range. I will also begin my work out routine working out helped me because it did decrease my stress and improved my self-esteem. I feel more determined and eager to accomplish my writing goals.

Below Victoria Scwab explains the calender/sticker for writing

Happy Writing.

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