When bleep happens

The easy part of being a writer is having fun making my characters go through various bleep situations and eventually achieve their obstacles but real life doesn't go like that because I have come to realize I cannot control people in reality the same way sometimes I cannot control my characters when they demand the arc of the story to progress a different route. I have decided that I want to be published and in order to get there I have to train myself to focus which coincides with my previous post gaining discipline. So I hope to have established a better regime and get on track with writing and also not letting stress of other people affect my productivity. Keisha Martin

Discipline when writing

Discipline, the theme word for me for this new week, I have been losing my writing routine due to various stress, and have made a decision to get my bleep back in gear and discipline myself back into a suitable writing routine and also editing. I would like to have the first revision done on my adult erotic romance novel and then read through it one more time make revisions and then pass it to my editor (I have to ask if she does edit steamy adult romance) my first novel a paranormal romance is going well I have been keeping on top of my edits but I want to do better a better means a faster turn-around when my editor sends me back comments/edits. So that is my mini update Keisha Martin

Pay it forward/Editor Cassandra Marshall

It took me a while, to realize many things in regards to avoiding a pile up of rejections one of which was finding a great editor to help me polish my novel(s) I am lucky I was referred to my editor Lynnette Labelle from the lovely National best-selling romance author Roni Loren. My first YA is progressing nicely and the cost of the edits works well with my budget(aspiring writers never quit your day job) Today while going back and forth from twitter and rewriting couple chapters Cassandra Marshall sent out a tweet regarding ways to promote her editorial services I sent a few ideas, she expressed her goal which is for writers to hire her which makes sense, so to pay it forward I have attached the links to her websites, check out her info if it works for you make the decision to get serious about your manuscript and put it into the hands of someone that will help you rip it apart and sculpt it back again and hopefully better your chances with an agent/publisher. LINKS LINK II Keisha Martin

Love/Hate random poetry

Today March first its significant because four more months until I am on summer break, but since that is a long ways away I will revel in the fact I will go on a much needed vacation without kids and spouse to regenerate a healthy mental healthy and hopeful gain some solid perspective, since my mood has been weird today one minute sad, then calm my muse encouraged me to write this short poem. The love I feel today how distant it feels tomorrow. When the days seemed longer, the warm breeze caress my skin and then the gusty cold wind dances on my face. Love hate what differentiates such powerful feelings? Is it the sunrise that makes me weep or the sunset that frightens me because darkness hovers nearby.

Mindfulness

Last week Friday I participated within a few workshops that had similar themes; stress relief, positive thinking and mindfulness. I recently decided I need to learn how to deal better with my stress, I have mentioned a few times in previous post why I began writing. Since writing is not so much an outlet for my stress and has become a goal that I want to pursue in order to hopefully get an agent and published I realize to do so I must be in good space to write, but its easier said than done, stress is defined as: A force exerted when one body or body part presses on, pulls on, pushes against, or tends to compress or twist another body or body part. When I am stress it really does feel like something is pulling inside my heart, my head feels heavy, my entire body is tensed. Source: http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/stress Mindfulness is defined as: Bearing in mind;inclined to be aware I'd learned via my education as Child Youth Worker how important positive thinking is, coping when life sometimes feels like someone is repeatedly kicking one in the shins, my purpose is to teach mindfulness to the various clients I work with however, the snag is that I do not follow my own training and the result for me is increase stress. So to have a healthy mental health I have worked into my schedule few things to begin that process. *Exercise: Working out three times a week has helped me not only my self esteem but also focusing my energy away from stress *Meditation: No music just one with myself rejecting the negative thinking, experiences and focusing my mind so that it will record so to speak positive experiences and thinking. A bit of stress is good though because it doesn't make people comfortable thus never growing, so basically to have a healthy lifestyle everything one goes through has to be balanced, life is a continuous circle at times the circle may be spinning so fast and it only slows down when one allows themselves to take in a long deep breath release the tension and focus on their own mindfulness. A wonderful friend at work mentioned something to me a few weeks ago that stuck with me, she said no one can control or affect the way I feel only I do. Keisha Martin

Random poetry

Hurt 

 Feels like a knife. 

 Wielding in my heart.

 Coldness. Darkness. Stupid. 

 Blinded by the real you Betrayal. 

 Awakening mirage of someone else. Ruthless. Shallow. 

 Throws away values at a whim. 

Mind. Body. Soul. Refreshed. 

 Cleansed from the memory. time will heal the wound. 

 Breathe and not think of you.

Nostalgia

The term nostalgia describes a sentimental longing for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations. The meaning of the word above has been significant as of late, seems life sometimes decides to give me a huge kick in the shin and taunt me about it...alright a bit melodramatic, the truth. I want happiness. The same way I want happiness for my imaginary characters however, a great writer who hones his her craft knows in order to do that suffering must happen, but the reality is I know that in order to grow my experiences although painful at times will make me a better individual and also happiness cannot be appreciated unless I am in the moment I can't hope, wish for it when it happens that is when it will make sense. My happiness hopefully will come in the form of getting a great agent/published but aside from that my true happiness that gets ignored sometimes is the air in my lungs and the love that I receive from my loved ones.