Blogging funk.

So my plan of blogging frequently once again is a goal that is easier said than done, I must admit I am having a hard time figuring out this blogging routine, and I realize its because at times I feel like I don't know what to say in regards to writing that hasn't been said,by other bloggers. For example I can say the same thing and twist it to reflect my personality but my heart seems as of late somewhat not feeling the blogging routine, but I know that its necessary for myself as an aspiring author to have a blog so if and when I get an agent published I already have a platform. The other issue is that many times I feel like what can I say that sets me apart from someone else that is enduring similar things as they journey through their publishing goal, and then it hit me its not about setting myself apart from others actually when I thought like that it now sounded quite cocky, so I had to humble myself and tell myself each person although on the same path responds different makes decisions different that leads to a different direction, I won't divulge about many authors that have self published did well financially, gained agent, publisher etc. So what will my plan be, well I decided I won't put pressure on myself when I have things to talk about I will write about it, because only then will my passion show, its not a race which could be why I was struggling and also another truth blogging is not about numbers, I do check out blogs of authors/writers with five thousand plus followers and some that have numbers similar to mine, the numbers to me does not on a large scale determine whether someone will buy authors book or will follow authors or aspiring authors journey, blogging is like writing a manuscript in a way...its only possible when the passion is involved I have tons of ideas many that is stored in notebooks labelled with dates when I will write them but I have not gone to that bin because the idea that pops in my head that fuels my passion is what I tend to write, for example week of July 2-6 these are the ideas that spawned. 1. Inspired by Stephen King short story THE BODY( I watched Stand By Me and the spark came and I said " I would love to write a novel inspired by movie and book, the idea lasted two days.) 2. Inspired by Stephen King Needful things (This was due to J.K Rowling new novel for adults a individual made a comment that the book sounds a lot like Needful Things,boom inspired that fizzled in a few hours 3. Snow White (I saw Snow White and the Huntsman) The idea to make my twist on this story that has been written so many times fizzled within a few hours as well, then came the idea with passion a steampunk, I knew that it was filled with passion because I wrote an outline and researched right away. I also have a file on my wall that reads next outline to choose, the next projects were a few adult steamy romance and a Dystopia novel again based on Stephen King Running Man, three books by Stephen King that has me inspired wow that scared me because normally I don't read too much of said author books aside from the ones I mentioned. So that is it, the point of this long post is write with passion and I will conclude my post with an excerpt of a poem I adore. Fire And Ice From what I tasted of desire, I hold with those who favor fire. Robert Frost One of my favorite poet.

Waiting to Exhale F%^&*

I am not back for long, just wanted to drop by the ole blog, man this year has been hard the saying is so true for my life now when it rains it pours, dealing with a disrespectful and revengeful coworker to a stranger that I had a small fender bender with that is trying to hustle money. I was thinking the other day have I been under a freaking rock, in which I just realized how heinous people can be in life, or maybe I was naive at any rate my strength to push on has been tested, but I cannot falter I have dreams to chase and also reality check I am a mom, a wife and I must live, so as I approach my summer holidays, two months off and a wonderful vacay in sunny Jamaica mon, I will look back at the year and say I did it, made it through day by day even though in the moment I felt like the darkness of my experiences was suffocating me, I know that I am not the only one that endures stuff like this and someone somewhere is going through worst shituations (no spelling error I just made up this word)

Lending a hand to hope

Natalie Bahm has been promoting a amazing event in support of a beautiful child please click on the link to read the important event, I must come out of my semi-blogger hiatus to help spread the word. I hope plenty of people, writers who stumble upon this post will consider offering support by checking out the auction. Here is the information from Natalie's blog about Jayden. Jayden Huynh is a seventeen-month-old little boy who has already survived four surgeries--two bowel, one heart, one gastric-- due to a combination of congenital problems, including Hirschsprung's disease and other issues that are still in the process of being diagnosed. Despite the best efforts of his doctors and family, Jayden has failed to gain enough weight to make it to even the 1st percentile. He only weighs 6.6 kilograms (14.5 pounds) and his low weight is affecting his organ's ability to function. His doctors are considering put him on TPN treatment (IV feeding) which carries its own dangers. The greatest risk to survival is sepsis at the site of his IV port, so Jayden's family need to convert a room in their home into a treatment room that can be kept separate and as sterile as possible in order to give him the best possible chance. This will include buying a small refrigerator/freezer to store the TPN, cabinets for storing medical supplies, a changing table for Jayden, a steam cleaning unit to keep the surfaces as clean as possible, and other supplies. Jayden's family have started a fund to try and raise money to set up this room, and are hoping to hold an auction to make it possible. Because Jayden's grandmother is a writer and an artist, they are hoping to gain donations from people in these industries to auction. Anything useful would be gratefully accepted, whether it be critiques, books, swag, etc. Because of the international nature of the auction, donors would need to be willing to ship items directly to their auction's winner, if it involves goods. We will provide information and links to the donor's websites, etc. along with each auction. The auction is set to begin on June 2 and will probably run for about a week. We've already had some awesome stuff donated, including agent critiques and phone calls, author critiques, signed books, jewelry and art. It's going to be amazing. Mark your calendars. If you feel you can donate anything for the auction or pass this along to friends who might want to help, it would be so appreciated. You can email me if you have an item or critique that you'd like to donate at nataliebahm (at) yahoo.com. If you'd like to help and you have nothing to donate you can always say a prayer, send good wishes to the family, or spread the word! We have a facebook account, a twitter account, and a blog you can follow, like, retweet, or repost. Jayden is such a brave little boy and his family has been through so much already. I know they're already overwhelmed by thie kindness the writing community has shown. We hope this auction will take a tiny bit of the financial pressure off of them, so they can focus on caring for Jayden. Thank you so much, for taking the time to read this. Source: http://nataliebahm.blogspot.ca/

Writing when feeling horrible

I am enduring a terrible situation at work in which my emotions have fluctuated from anger to sadness to disbelieve, I didn't feel the need to write, my muse was not flowing ideas, I felt like a dark cloud was over me, I really wanted to give in and accept that it was okay, but I didn't because I realize my emotions was not caused by writers block and I went over the situation and realized I wasn't going to let it defeat my dream, so I wiped my tears and wrote, now likely what I wrote will be cut eventually, because I will realize it either didn't make sense or didn't do the scene justice and I like to give a decent effort even when I write my first draft. Faith is also really good, believing the ugly situation I am faced with will be rectified and it will be a horrible memory that would eventually leave my thoughts if I let my emotions get the best of my dream of getting published if and when that happens how would I cope with certain things like deadlines, reviews, or other task, now I am not saying its never okay to take time to oneself but for me I feel writing helps me cope it is my outlet to deal with stress it is the career that I hope one day will be something I do on a full time.

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I am back, well sort of, so what has been happening well still honing and revising my first novel, finished two novels during the winter, looking forward to the summer in which I can get in a better groove to finish the latest wip I am working on and blogging on a regular schedule. Going on a mini blog hiatus has taught me a few things but the most significant that I continue to stick by is me being myself and also the online world although vast is quite small, things get around so my focus is to not dwell on others success and get in a glum mood that my opportunity will not come, I made a commitment to strive at my goal towards publication and the rest of stuff that I will never be able to control I will leave it be. Plus I decided as well if I don't love a book, I will keep it to myself, there is too many challenging things that go along with writing so its not nice I think to add to an author/writer challenge by giving a bad review, which brings me to this point although I like Goodreads because I am introduced to books that I may never pick up at my local bookstore it is also a venue in which people express their feelings about books and some are quite nasty. Lastly I have had couple good news which pumps me up to work even harder, sometimes the small strides make the journey worth it. So I will resume my mini blog hiatus to polish ECLIPSE my YA paranormal romance until then a random feature I will add my crush of the week the one and only Ian Somerhalder